I spent the night dancing...

Journal Entry: Recap

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 17:56:47 GMT

Title: Recap
Raiting: NC-17
Synopsis: Yan' recaps what's gone on the past few days and yes, it's dirty.

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This is taken from the diary of Yan Truant. It contains explicit text so… don’t be a baby about it.

Holy shit so much has happened yet again and… well I’ll just do my best to tell it all and not screw stuff up. I guess you’d say it started with Jordi.

God… Jordi is sweet, he’s sexy, he’s downright adorable and words can’t really convey the things I want to do to that little half elf. He knows that we can never actually do anything though and he’s okay with that, our “relationship” is based on a mutual attraction that we know can’t go anywhere, and the fact that I consider him my best friend. We do actually talk about things other than sex, it just ends up heading there eventually. The other night was no different, he… well he confessed that he loved me and I made sure he knew that things weren’t going to change. They weren’t going to get weird or different, I wasn’t going to walk on eggshells around him, none of that nonsense that seems to ruin so many friendships. He was comforted and… yeah the conversation turned to sex. Oh holy fuck! We’ve flirted before, we’ve gone past flirting and downright talked dirty before but this was different. I couldn’t help it, it just got to be too much and I started to get off right there while he was still talking to me. He knew it and he urged me on, keeping it up until I came all over my pants. It was so fucking intense! So as you can imagine I started off pretty worked up before Kishi got to me.

Honestly I’m not sure how long it was between when Jordi got me off and when Kishi started talking to me but out of nowhere he was coming onto me. This is what had gotten us in trouble before but it didn’t seem to matter anymore and given that I was already sexually frustrated I just couldn’t resist. He was talking dirty and all of a sudden Leo came up and… I was floored. Leo had said, he had actually said that he wanted to see Kishi and I have sex. I… how do you react to that? I mean Kishi is beautiful and it wouldn’t be the first time I had sex in front of someone… it seemed like we were actually talking about it really happening, like we were planning it! The idea got to me, it made me so fucking horny that I said yes. I knew he’d be visiting soon and God the thought of Leo getting off on watching us go at it was driving my mind crazy. Then Kishi blew my mind again and eluded to the fact that Leo was getting off on what they were talking about in the other room. Yeah… once again I couldn’t resist.

Leo and I have barely spoken since the break up but I went in there, saw him stroking himself at the computer and without a word I began to go down on him. He seemed embarrassed that I’d caught him until he realized my intentions. He loved it, he even continued typing for a little while, telling Kishi what was going on. Afterwards it was a little awkward but he told me that Kishi had told him everything about our argument and Leo realized that he’d broken up with me over a misunderstanding. I don’t know if you could technically say we reconciled over a blowjob since he said he was already planning on asking me to take him back but yes, we’re back together now. I went to bed with him that night and we talked about what we both had been talking about with Kishi.

I know what anyone reading this might be thinking, what about Rye? I love him, I love him so much it hurts to think about him but honestly… he says he loves me but if he did wouldn’t he bother to keep in contact with me? He’s been gone for so long and he’s talked to me once online and called me once that’s it. He never told me where he was going, I didn’t find out until he sent Kitten to come live with us. I’ve thought about it a lot, I had doubts and I talked to both Kishi and Leo about them. I… I think I’ve realized that Rye may say he loves me but either he doesn’t or he just doesn’t get it. I know he can get in touch with me it just costs money and… I guess I’m not that important to him. It’s best if I just stop this before either of us gets anymore hurt than we already are. Next time he contacts me I plan on telling him goodbye. I don’t know what else there is to say.

Yan and Rye: A Gift

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 14:36:18 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the deviation "A Gift" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

In general you can expect their comments to turn dirty (though they don't always) so the rating is at least PG13.

Note: This one is dirty from the start... you've been warned.

Yan: Oh fuck!
Rye: That..bad?
Yan: No darling... that was... very good.
Rye: Are you...y'know...alright?
Yan: Yes darling. How do I put this delicately... I um... have changed my pants.
Rye: Babe...you don't wear pants...other than Le--oh god.....
Yan: I was wearing my pajama pants thank you. I'm just not wearing any now. *blush*
Rye: Mm....my appologies.
Yan: The gift is very appreciated darling. It's um... something I'll take with me... y'know mentally.
Rye: Just don't ruin any more clothes. It will be quite the embarassing laundry day.
Yan: Well I'll be better prepared next time. I honestly don't think that's ever happened to be before.
Rye: *smirk* Glad to be of service...
Yan: *still blushing* I'm kind of at a loss here... you've caught me off guard.
Rye: My appologies...I really am sorry. I didnt think it'd be such a surprise...
Yan: Don't apologize darling, I loved it. You are so incredibly sexy... and... you can now say you gave me an orgasm without even touching me. *laughs* That has to count for something.
Rye: Imagine what will occur once I get my hands on you...
Yan: I think it's probably best if i think about that later...
Rye: Oh? *smile* But I'd love you to imagine it now.
Yan: You're awful. *bites lip*
Rye: Am i? maybe I should take a few in devil horns and a tail *wink*
Yan: I'm going to have to punish you for this later you realize.
Rye: But i'm a good puppy...
Yan: Oh I promise you it will be the kind of punishment you'll enjoy.
Rye: Isn't much of a punnishment then is it?
Yan: Shut up and take it like a good little boy, hmm?
Rye: Of course...I'm a good boy.
Yan: I'll be the judge of that.
Rye: I didnt grope your ass when you stradled me at the aquarium
Yan: Why not? I mean... I was sitting on you, you could see straight up my skirt... it wasn't completely innocent.
Rye: There were children running around...so I chose to behave.
Yan: I certainly hope you don't make that mistake again. *snicker*
Rye: I won't let anything hold back my urges to molest you again, I promise.
Yan: You best not, I'd hate to have to get cranky.
Rye: *laugh* Oh trust me....after five months of dealing with Kishi teasing me and you as well not much could keep me from you.
Yan: I don't tease too badly do I? *giggles*
Rye: From the looks of it I tease you far more.
Yan: I really think you do, but all in all I won't say I mind. It gives me something to think about while I wait.
Rye: You should have plenty to think about....Leo is there after all.
Yan: Well... yes... but I really do try to keep the two thought processes seperate.
Rye: I meant you should think about him more...He is the one who is there after all.
Yan: Rye, I think about Leo plenty. Why does everyone seem to think I'm neglecting him? If I'm not online talking to you I am most likely with Leo.
Rye: ...Because you're constantly online talking with me?
Yan: Would you prefer that I not? I can stop if that's what you want.
Rye: Yan..you know that isn't what I meant.
Yan: *sigh* I know... and I don't mean to be snippy it's just that I know that everyone thinks I'm some horrible fucked up person. I have people saying I should leave Leo, I have people saying I should leave you, and odds are there are people who think I should just leave the both of you and go crawl in a hole somewhere. I really do try my best to give you both equal attention.
Rye: Yan....I don't think you're a horrible person...and I know Leo doesn't either. Screw the world. You have us and you are happy with that.
Yan: *smiles* Thank you... I really don't usually care what other people think but if you thought I wasn't spending enough time with Leo I couldn't help but wonder if he felt that way too... but I don't think he does. If anything I think he sort of enjoys when I'm talking to you, then he actually get some peace and quiet.
Rye: I'm sure he enjoys the time with his books.
Yan: Yes... or maybe it's that he enjoys the time I'm not trying to get him to watch Lifetime movies or go shopping. *giggles* I admit, I'm awful.
Rye: No dragging me to go shopping.....that'd be such a waste of our time.
Yan: Oh no, our time would be much more well spent. And y'know I've never successfully managed to drag him out shopping anyway.
Rye: Have you successfully dragged him out anywhere....? *keeping the subject clean*
Yan: Outside... on a walk... that's about it. He hates going out because people look at him weird. I guess they'd look at me weird too if they knew I was a guy but generally speaking people just think I'm a girl till they hear me talk.
Rye: Well...you're one hot girl. *smiles*
Yan: *giggles* You say the sweetest things.
Rye: Well you are hotter than most girls that catch my attention...I'd say you were hotter than Kishi bu--OW! god damnit!! *rubs head*
Kishi: Next time I'll throw the toaster!
Yan: Kishi that's awful! Are you okay darling? (And don't worry... *snicker* I know I am.)
Rye: Yeah...he threw one of my boots *rubs head* forgot how heavy those things are......and he threw it from the bedroom. Damn good arm on that girly boy..
Yan: Remind me not to get on his bad side. O_O
Rye: *laughs* he knows that if he hurts you he won't have a home or a gaurdian any longer.
Yan: Aww. That's actually rather sweet of you.
Rye: Sweet? maybe. Vengeful? oh yeah...
Yan: *laughs* You're such an ass, but as we've already established it's one of those things I love about you.
Rye: Why do you love that about me....Its such a confusing fact.
Yan: I do not know... *laughs* I guess because it's part of you... and I love you. Besides, you make up for it pretty well, just so long as you don't take it too far.
Rye: I try not too....You can keep tally though as to how many times I go to far and then smack me that number of times in may if you would like.
Yan: *laughs* Oh wow! You must be serious about me if you're willing to do that!
Rye: Once you see my scars you'll understand I've gone through worse than a girly boy hitting me
Yan: I can slap pretty hard... but... I am interested in seeing your body... in person. I mean for more than just sexual reasons.
Rye: More than sexual? What other reasons could there be...
Yan: *laughs* Your body is unique. As much as I'm a fan of showing off my body it's not that... interesting. I want to get to know every single bit of you, that includes your scars... and the stories behind them if you'll tell me. If not I'll understand, I mean if it's painful to talk about.
Rye: I'll tell you anything you want.....I doubt I could resist that cute pout of yours. Plus after so many years you start to loose sensativity about such uninteresting subjects as how one got a scar.
Yan: Thank you... it will give us something to do while we're resting. *laughs*
Rye: Just don't write any more things for me to imagine....that is horribly cruel for someone that can not play as easily as the normal man.
Yan: *snicker* Sorry... well... I'm a little sorry. Can you not... is there no way?
Rye: Do NOT get my started Yan.....It envolves things I do NOT want Kishi to know I own.
Yan: *sputters* Alrighty! We will end it here... for now... I'll remember this when I see you.
Rye: It is...different for me. Unlike most I do not posess the abilty to tire from excreation. I tire after a while because of the physical activity and that is it.....So I do promise you'll have fun with me when you see me next.
Yan: *whimpers* Damnit I want to take you home with me. I do get tired of course being that I'm human but I don't require a lot of rest. As you can probably imagine I have a healthy sex drive... I know, it's a shock.
Rye: *chuckles* Take me home with you? whatever for, Lamb...?
Yan: For whatever pops to mind... whenever it pops to mind.
Rye: You'd be insisting every five minutes...I'd start to worry if you ever got time to eat or sleep.
Yan: Only at first... it would eventually space out to... every half hour or so.
Rye: Oh....god Yan I think someone could die from having sex that often.
Yan: No... I mean... I can't attest to it lasting for more than a weekend but...
Rye: I get it, you would want too....
Yan: *sigh* I mean I've never had it last for more than a weekend. When I was younger there were these guys and... well you don't want to hear about it but every half hour is probably about right... maybe an hour in between every once in a while.
Rye: Yan...I'll listen to anything you say if it will make you feel better to talk about it and in the process I can learn a bit more about you..
Yan: It's not like I'm ashamed of my past I just don't suppose you or Leo needs to know some of the things I've done. I wouldn't say I'm proud of my past of course... but I'm definitely not ashamed.
Rye: I'm almost as curious about your past as you are about mine...after all you want to know about my scars and their stories. I'd love to listen to you tell a few stories..I love listening to you speak on the rare occasion we actually get to talk.
Yan: *smiles* What is there to know about me? My parents died when I was a little kid and I was left with my aunt. I'm very lucky that she was open minded and when I was confused about liking my best friend when I was twelve she was completely cool with it. I didn't come out until I was eighteen but I had started earning a reputation on the "underground" gay crowd by the time I was fifteen.
Rye: ...So young?..I'm amazed Yan.
Yan: That I knew I was gay at twelve or that I started slutting around at fifteen?
Rye: Using yourself in such a manner...
Yan: It wasn't a big deal. It started out with just kissing, then I started giving blowjobs and after I lost... well... a while after I lost my virginity it went from there.
Rye: I understand...Uhm...I'm afraid I have to go for the evening and I won't be around to talk to for a bit...I have to go pack.
Yan: Oh? You're going on a trip? Well... I hope you have fun.
Rye: Yan...I know I should have mentioned it sooner but it kind of snuck up on me.....I'm so sorry. I could be gone for up to a month...maybe a little longer depending on the situation. I trust that Leo will take good care of you while I am gone..
Yan: A... a month? I hope everything is okay... I... I'll miss you
Rye: I promise I'll bring you back a gift.....I really am sorry Yan.
Yan: I'm not mad... I'm sure you have a good reason for needing to leave. I'm just... I'm going to miss you so much that's all.
Rye: Please don't cry.......I'll be back before you know it.
Yan: I'll be okay, don't worry... I mean... it's not forever...
Rye: I promise I will bring you back something shiny......somthing for you to forgive me over.
Yan: I'll be eagerly awaiting your return present or no. I love you.
Rye: I love you as well Yan. Please don't worry to much.
Yan: *small smile* You know me, I worry... but I'll be okay.

Photostory: A gift...

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 13:07:59 GMT

Title: A Gift...
Starring: Rye
Raiting: PG13
Synopsis: Rye's gift to Yan.
Note: This is not my deviation, it belongs to Kris. I just edited the pictures and sent them back to her. For the moment I'm just going to link the photostory rather than post it since it's not mine.

[dA link] (Fullview it.)

Yan and Rye: Lost in You

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 13:03:40 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the deviation "Lost in You" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

In general you can expect their comments to turn dirty (though they don't always) so the rating is at least PG13

Note: The deviation is a picture of Yan and Leo. It begins with owner chatter before handing it over to the boys.

Kris: ...I think rye just buried himself in the fuzz blanket
zim: o_O *pokes Rye*
Kris: He's trying to be good! He gets...jealous I guess, and misses Yan.
zim: Awww, that's so sweet. *pats him instead*
Yan: We'll have our time together darling, I promise. *sends e-kisses*
Rye: >3< you suck.......*goes to snuggle with giant "*poke*" bunny*
Yan: I suck? o_O I was trying to be nice brat!
Rye: ...child...
Yan: Jealous. *sticks out tongue*
Rye: -______-;; Maybe I should go snuggle with Kishi again...
Yan: Oh see, now you're trying to make me jealous... and it's not gonna work. ... But I really was just trying to be sweet earlier.
Rye: I know you're jealous...always are.
Yan: Okay now you're just being an ass. *rolls eyes*
Rye: I'll cease being an ass when Valentines Day rolls around
Yan: You have me intrigued... but I doubt you'll cease being an ass even then. *snicker* It's not in your nature my love.
Rye: And you love every bit of it......
Yan: Well... yeah, I guess I do. *giggles* You're still a brat though, I don't care if you are older.
Rye: ...Kishi's a brat...I, sir, am no brat....
Yan: But there are different degrees of brat. Tycho's a brat but I somehow doubt he's quite on the same level as Kishi.
Rye: Boy seems to regularly get what he wants...half my home has suddenly become Asian ._.
Yan: But... I regularly get what I want... does that make me a brat? And Asian stuff is pretty.
Rye: Yes, Lamb...you are a brat. And it is pretty...but it’s ruining my manly bachelor pad...
Kishi:: ....It needs ruining, and a feminine touch.
Yan: Your manly bachelor pad... riiiiiiiiiiight. *chooses to ignore brat comment*
Leo: In an odd way I sort of feel your pain. Our house has gotten a lot more pink in recent months.
Yan: *glares* You love it damnit.
Rye: You're house is going gay.....no house should be such a happy, cheery color.
Kishi:: Least my things are gold and red! Not too girly... though I insist my bed be purple~
Rye: .....Right...I have to get you your own bed....>< mine has become covered with pillows...girly... shiny... beaded pillows.
Leo: Going gay? *eyes Key and Donovan* I'm pretty sure it was well on its way before Yan got here.
Yan: I'm just the icing on the cake! *preens*
Leo: Yeah... mm... hmm... *eyebrow raise*
Yan: Pfft, whatever. My sense of style is under appreciated here.
Rye: ...You gave me a fuzzy bear hat...
Kishi:: I can pet him! *pet*
Rye: *snarl*
Yan: I gave you a pretty necklace too. See, I make the world a more beautiful place!
Rye: The frog necklace? So... cute...
Kishi:: He's wearing all of it! I think he likes them.
Yan: *squeels* Yay! And zim said he wouldn't wear the frog necklace... pfft!
Kishi:: I insisted.......even if I had to restrain him to get it on him.
Rye: ...u_u I can't get the clasp open to get it off.
Yan: *laughs* Well I suppose it's my luck that the average masculine guy is defeated by the workings of jewelry.
Rye: It's so unfair... I choked myself the other day attempting to remove it. The clasp hates me!
Yan: *giggles* And the feminine mind wins yet again.

Yan and Rye: From Yan's Diary: Day Off

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 17:03:37 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the deviation "From Yan's Diary: Day Off" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

In general you can expect their comments to turn dirty (though they don't always) so the rating is at least PG13.

Rye:...Well I am almost speechless. Do you not remember I promised my loyalty?..Yan that isn't going to change.
Yan: I just wanted you to know you don't have to. I love the idea of you being only mine but I hate to think that I'm becoming this possesive hypoctrical creature. So I will leave the decision up to you. *laughs* It just makes me feel better this way.
Rye: I become concerned about your mental state on occassion....
Yan: *eyebrow raise* Oh really?
Rye: Who wouldnt? I mean...considering the things that run through your mind I only assume every ten minutes.
Yan: *laughs* The inner workings of my mind would probably surprise you.
Rye: I imagine a tiny fairy prancing around in there doing filing work right before being attacked by a tentacle monster.
Yan: *falls over in a fit of giggles* I have absolutely no idea what to say to that.
Rye: probably a good thing.......
Kishi: I bet they're pink!! and the jelly squid is purple! OOOH! AND SPARKLY!
Rye: >>;; he's....had a bit to drink...
Yan: *blinks* Well... uh... okay, not saying I actually do have head fairies or... squids, but if I did they'd naturally be pink and purple. I mean those are my favorite colors after all. ... And I do like sparkly things. >.> And wait, back on this squid thing... is this some weird tentacle porn fetish I didn't know about?
Rye:......Recent events....blame him...*points at kishi.*
Kishi: I like the school uniforms =3
Yan: Oh dear God he's got you watching tentacle porn. Rye I assure you there's much better out there... I could probably find you some. *snicker*
Rye: I do NOT understand this...hentai...thing...
Yan: *giggles* Y'know for an immortal you really are kind of sheltered.
Rye: I know that some people get horny just by watching a woman press a gas pedal...I do not understand that either.
Yan: Yeah well, I don't understand getting horny by watching a woman do anything. *shrug*
Rye: It's....a unique appeal...
Kishi: If they have money...or something to offer...i'm all for it.
Yan: I just never got it. *shrug* I mean I don't find them unattractive but I have no desire to have sex with one. That's just... weird.
Rye: Meh...you're choice in the end
Yan: You know... your choice of phrasing is... beautiful.
Rye: It's been...*glances at calender* six weeks since i've slept, my appologies if my tounge slips on such simple phrases
Yan: ... Darling you need to sleep. :(
Rye: I don't sleep. We've covered this...
Yan: Yes I know... but you should. You're not always in danger you know. *sigh* What is with me and guys who don't sleep?
Rye: Just means you have a challange when it comes to wearing them out...
Yan: Oh I would gladly accept that challenge. *snicker*
Rye: Least it's not one that puts me in drag again...
Yan: ... I have kind of wondered what you might look like in some of my clothes...
Rye: no! no...no no no no never ever ever!
Yan: But... if you're wearing my clothes then that means I'm not... so it's not all bad.
Rye:..........hm....true....but you wont screw me if i'm in one of your skirts
Yan: Like hell I won't! I don't give a damn what you're wearing, I'll rip it off you either way, even if it is mine.
Rye: Easy little man...maybe its tmie for you to take a cold shower.
Yan: ... Little man? o_O Maybe it's time for you to take a nap.
Rye: Why would I need a nap....
Yan: Because you obviously have me mistaken for someone else.
Rye:...a child is a little man...
Yan: And I am not a child, so therefore...
Rye: Leo and I have already established this fact, remember? You are indeed a child just like I am an ass and he is a sheltered gentlemen.
Yan: It really isn't fair that you and Leo plot against me... well not unless it benefits me in some way but I'm not really seeing how it could currently.
Rye:...You were part of that discussion, lamb.
Yan: ... Oh... was I? *feels dumb*
Rye: Yes, Yes lamb you were. Leo even called you a child and found it amusing.
Yan: I remember that! You two are so mean to me! *pouts*
Rye: That is hardly mean...
Leo: You have to remember that Yan views the world as a woman might. They seem to have different sensibilities as far as "mean" and whatnot go.
Yan: I hate when he reads over my shoulder. *broods*
Rye: Oh but I adore speaking with him......And I suppose you're right, his veiws do tend to lean towards fairly feminine.
Yan: Hellooooo I'm right here! I can see you talking about me.
Leo: No one said it was bad Yan, we both obviously don't mind.
Rye: As long as my place doesnt become pink based...I'm good.
Yan: *laughs* Well seeing as how I doubt I'll ever even see your place I don't think that is an issue.
Leo: I like to consider this "taking one for the team" personally. My room used to be so nice and blue...
Rye:...What happened to the blue?
Kishi: Whats about to happen with that mess you call a room...
Leo: The blue is still there it's just... more pink than it used to be. Which really makes no sense considering we don't technically share a room.
Yan: What? I like to have some of my things close by if I need them, so what?
Leo: *sigh* My room isn't even messy! I don't find this fair at all.
Rye: Yan, love............let the man have one place that is his. You are girlifying their home after all.
Yan: *pouts* But... his room is so boooooring. There's next to nothing in it!
Rye: Yes, and that is his choice.....
Yan: You masculine types are absolutely no fun. *pouts more*
Rye:..I'm still stuck in this damn frog necklace (^3^ I love froggies)
Yan: *giggles* I know you like it! You act all manly but you love it!
Rye: *grumpy* it will look awful with my suit...
Yan: Aww, you can always wear it under your shirt. And I can't wait to see you in a suit.
Rye: And out of it...
Yan: Well yes, of course, but that's a given.
Rye: I have to shower at some point.
Yan: Can I come? =3
Rye: *le gasp* you'd allow me to see you without your makeup?
Yan: Well... I mean I do love you... so as long as you promised not to make fun of me or tell me I'm ugly...
Rye: You arnt ugly....And I wont laugh as long as you dont.
Yan: You know I'd never laugh and... you say that now but all you've ever seen is me looking pretty on purpose.
Rye: Looks arnt all that matters you know..
Yan: Well... now they aren't but for years that wasn't the case. If I didn't look my best I didn't get any attention.
Rye: Thats....so depressing.
Yan: I never thought about it really. It's pretty much the way I lived until I met Jeremy, and then I went back to living that way until I came here. Now I know you and Leo and... I guess I'm getting more comfortable with the idea that it really is possible for someone to love me for who I am. Maybe it wasn't a one time fluke.
Rye: Lifes just full of surprises, lamb. You'll come to enjoy the little ones in time.
Yan: So I'm finding out...
Rye: It's the small simple things in life that make it worth while......also the things that make you smile.
Yan: *yawns* That sounds very poetic... like song lyrics or a poem or something. *laughs*
Rye: It's possible...I don't remember everything I read. Though i'm sure i'm boring you with such things.
Yan: Darling you never bore me, you're far too interesting for that.
Rye: Hah! me.....interesting?
Yan: Of course! Believe it or not I really do like listening (or reading I guess) what you have to say.
Rye: I'd call but I'd be concerned about kishi saying something obsurd.
Yan: You realize he's going to be there when we see each other again right? And doesn't he sleep?
Rye: Oh I know he'll be there...I'm hoping Leo will be enough to distract him, who knows...he may get along with Donovan. And..yes he sleeps. Though so do you and I'm more concerned about you getting the rest you need.
Yan: *laughs* Wait, so you're trying to pawn your client off on my boyfriend? Is it... bad that instead of being jealous I would just like to see how Leo handles Kishi? Oh but don't worry about my rest, I can get that whenever.
Rye: Hah...He thinks Leo's pretty...who knows what he'd attempt. For all I know he'd somehow talk Leo into drag..
Yan: Oh now that I'd like to see! I've seen pictures of Leo in a skirt but that's all. He's apparently become more masculine since coming here.
Rye: We'll see..I'm sure nothing skimpy though, Kishi has this thing about long skirts...
Yan: Long skirts? Why? I don't even own a long skirt, what's the point?
Rye: I havent the slightest...espetially considering his nature. Guess its since he's used to wearing kimonos which cover so much.
Yan: I suppose. It's kind of ironic that he has sex for money and wears so much yet I used to have sex for free and wore so little. Or maybe that isn't ironic... maybe that just means he's classier than I used to be. *laughs*
Rye: Babe....you still wear that little, if not less.
Yan: Well yeah... but I just dress like a slut now.
Rye: Oh and I appreciate that.......gives me something to look at when nothing else is interesting.
Yan: *giggles* And something to think about when you're in your happy place? Leo told me you two were talking earlier.
Rye:....................*eye twitch..*...d-damn him..
Yan: o_O I didn't know that would send you into a seizure.
Rye: I...didn't know he'd spread that around...
Yan: *laughs* Relax, he didn't give details... though now I'm wondering what details I'm missing.
Rye: ah...nothing love...nothing...!
Yan: *whines* RYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! What aren't you telling me?
Rye: Nothing!....nothing at all!
Yan: You're lying! Hmph. Looks like I'm just going to have to keep my clothes on for once.
Rye:...You'd best not tease me like that in may.
Yan: And what would you do if I did?
Rye: I can be a nice guy...but teasing me often drives me over the edge and I do stupid things..
Yan: Well then I'll have to be sure to do it just enough to drive you crazy but not enough to drive you over the edge. I want sex, not death.
Rye: You...just don't want me that rough. I wouldnt kill you..but you might get bruised.
Yan: While in general I don't mind things rough, I do understand what you mean. Don't worry darling, I wouldn't push you that far. I have no intent on making you do anything you would regret.
Rye:...You're far to understanding at times.
Yan: Hmm... I usually hear I'm far too unreasonable, this is... new.
Rye: You are unreasonable, even stuborn, but you can be understanding as well...
Yan: *laughs* Well I assure you I am only this understanding with people I really care about. It's amazing what strange things become acceptable when your feelings get involved.
Rye: you accept far to much from me....first my difference, then how much of an ass I am.....not to mention how far away I am.
Yan: I do it because I love you. I guess... that's how I realized it. I've never been in this kind of situation before and I can't think of any other time when I would have stuck around but... well not sticking around doesn't seem like an option.
Rye: You have Leo to keep you around...I'm just here in words.
Yan: You're here in more than just words darling.
Rye: By and logical means..no...I'm not.
Yan: Emotions dipshit!
Rye: Did you........*shock*
Yan: ... *hides*
Rye: I...can not beleive you just called me that..........what ever did I do to diserve such bereivement.
Yan: You were being far too literal. Of course technically you're just words on a screen but you should know by now that you're far more than that to me. You are so... male!
Rye: I love tricking you into saying how you feel *smirk*...and I'm so Male? how is that so...i'm more female in body than most.
Yan: Just how much more can you get out of me via trickery? I've already told you that I love you, what are you expecting now? A proposal and the offer to have your children? 'Cause uh... yeah, you're not getting that. And you just act male. Look for subtle nuances damnit.
Rye: *snicker* I'll stick to making you repeat your feelings. I'm just that kind of ass.
Yan: Whatever floats your boat I suppose. I don't really mind saying how I feel, I've just sort of come to accept it.
Rye: I'm glad....I would hate to make you uncomfortable in any way.
Yan: I find that a little hard to believe.
Rye:....Why, love?
Yan: You seem to enjoy making me uncomfortable... and no I don't necessarily mean in a sexual way either. (Though I don't doubt that you enjoy that as well... and I don't really mind.)
Rye: On some level I supposed I do enjoy it...but I don't mean to do it.
Yan: Well I guess as long as you aren't being completely malicious about it...
Rye: Malicious?.......I'll try not to be.
Yan: Appreciated. You know how easily I can get my feelings hurt. *smiles*
Rye: But it is so easy to repair them.
Yan: No, it's easy to get me sidetracked by giving me compliments or saying something sweet. There's a difference.
Rye: But... it works does it not?
Yan: I... am a little worried darling... if you really think you can hurt my feelings and make it all better by telling me I'm pretty. *chews lip*
Rye: Ah...Yan I didnt mean it like that...
Yan: Okay... I just... *sigh* I'm sorry, I misunderstood. I don't think you'd hurt my feelings on purpose.
Rye: ...Yan..I don't want to hurt you...
Yan: I know, I know... sometimes... you don't realize it I guess... I just sort of figured it's because you don't interact with people much... Please don't think I'm insulting you, I don't mean to say you're thoughtless or anything! I know you wouldn't hurt me on purpose... can we leave it at that?
Rye:...Sounds like a good idea..
Yan: You aren't mad at me are you?
Rye: ...No...Don't concern yourself with it.
Yan: When you say things like that it confuses me. I have the feeling there's more going on than you're telling me.
Rye: Like what?
Yan: Like... I don't know, that's the whole point. *laughs* It's nothing, don't worry. Paranoia I guess.
Rye: Well other than kishi poking through my clothes right now... and insulted my choice of underwear... nothing is going on.
Yan: Ah yes, what was it you said earlier about pink frills? I admit that would be something to see...
Rye: ...oh god they are on his head....
Yan: Is he drunk again... or is he always like this?
Rye: I think he's just bored....but its hard to tell with him. I've restricted his outtings so he's a bit stir crazy.
Yan: Okay... I know this is really mean... but I am very much looking forward to seeing how Leo handles him. (I feel a bit like I'm throwing him to the wolves though.) I'm a horrible boyfriend.
Rye: I'm sure leo will do just fine...Kishi isnt usually so silly. He's just stir crazy.
Yan: Oh I'm sure he will, Leo adapts fairly well. Even if Kishi was acting silly he would most likely be able to roll with it easily enough. I uh... I think I judged him too harshly when I first "met" him... Kishi I mean. He doesn't seem like a bad guy.
Rye: He really isnt...you were just worried about me cheating on you at first.
Yan: I was worried about him... well seducing you sounds cheesy but... either way it doesn't matter anymore.
Rye: It doesnt matter?
Yan: Well, I mean... it matters... but I told you that you didn't have to stay faithful if you didn't want to so it wouldn't technically be cheating... and y'know... I'm going to shut up now.
Rye: Yan.....I'm not going to cheat on you.
Yan: *smiles* Okay.

Note: This thing was six pages long in MS word!

Journal Entry: Day Off

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 16:07:19 GMT

Title: Day Off
Raiting: PG
Synopsis: Yan takes a day to himself for some serious thinking.

***

This is taken from the diary of Yan Truant.

Yesterday I decided to take a “day off” of sorts. I only checked my messages every now and then, I refused to take part in any drama and I let myself simply relax and enjoy the beauty that can be my life. It feels like forever since I’ve done something like this and it has done me a world of good.

I realized today how much I’ve changed. I traded a life of sex with strangers for the love of one man, returned to more carefree ways once that relationship ended and then found myself with two completely wonderful and adoring men. Since then you would think that my life would have been roses and sunshine but it’s been anything but. It’s involved more crying than I’d done for months, more doubt than I ever remember feeling and other emotions that I don’t even want to talk about. For as happy as the relationships have made me, I have also been making myself completely miserable and I hadn’t even realized it. So today I took a long hot bath, looked in the mirror and tried to find that carefree boy that used to inhabit this body, or at least some form of him. I believe I have.

Drama I can handle, my life has been full of drama for as long as I can remember and honestly I think I would be bored without it. I can even handle jealousy to a degree, because honestly if you never feel jealous then something is seriously wrong with you I think. But this insecurity and even self loathing to some degree, that I can’t handle. That isn’t me, and while I realize we change as we get older I refuse to accept such a change in myself.

I also realized that I have been unfair to both Leo and Rye. I care for them both very deeply and above all I want their happiness, yet all I seem to be focusing on is my own desires. There are several ways I’ve done this but the biggest… the most obvious is that I want to keep them both to myself when neither of them can ask that of me. I’ve realized that that’s unfair, I can’t ask something of someone that I can’t give myself. I’ll admit the thought of Rye in bed with another man ties my stomach in knots and fills me with a sick feeling I don’t think I’ve ever experienced before. It’s something I have to learn to deal with though.

I told Leo tonight that I wasn’t going to ask either of them to be faithful to me and he seemed… kind of upset really. He said he had “no desire to be with anyone else” but the man never leaves the house, of course there’s no one else he would want to be with. I imagine Rye will be a little more accepting of the decision. I just ask that they (Rye and yes Leo even though he swears there won’t be anyone else) take my feelings into account and remember that this is something I’m still adjusting to. I can’t promise I won’t be jealous, I can’t promise I won’t cry, but I’ll try my hardest not to. The last thing I want to be is a hypocrite.

Yan, Rye, Julian and Kishi: Use Your Imagination

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 13:18:20 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan, Rye, Julian and Kishi in the comments of the deviation "Use Your Imagination" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris, Julian and his dialogue belongs to Raila.

In general you can expect their comments to turn dirty (though they don't always) so the rating is at least PG13.

Note: Yeah... more plot stuff. The boys are bringing the drama lately.

Note 2: There are actually two lines of conversation here...

Rye: oh....my..*blush*
Yan: *smiles* I hope I didn't embarass you darling.
Rye: Just....A bit im afraid. You happened to describe my body quite accurately.
Yan: *laughs quietly* I have a very good imagination, which I'm sure you already know.

Julian: Yan sweetie....have you ever thought of taking a cold shower.....and this really isn't the sort of thing you let -anyone- read...
Yan: Julian that would suggest I have some sort of reason to be ashamed and I really don't feel I do. As for the cold shower... okay yes maybe you're right there.
Julian: Belle don't you know there are kids on this site, they don't need to be reading things like that.....and of course its obvious that you have little shame, but thats one of the things that makes you so attractive to others.
Yan: Julian you are positively adorable, and I really don't mean that in a sarcastic way. *laughs* If there are kids on the site then they shouldn't be reading things marked mature, which this is. Don't worry, I do think of these things, after all I live with two of them myself.

((This is in response to Yan's statement to Julian that he has no reason to be ashamed.))
Rye: I have every reason to be ashamed....................*hides*
Yan: Why should you be ashamed darling? Please don't hide...
Kishi: I...Think he's embarassed about his body.....
Yan: Well he has no need to be. I love him, he has no need to be embarassed.
Kishi: They range from bairly visible to severe....it's quite interesting.
Yan: ... if you're trying to bait me I'm not going to take it. He's already told me you two haven't had sex.
Kishi: I wasn't implying that...not at all. But he does have a lovely body.
Yan: Shut up. I don't want to talk to you.
Kishi: You're getting upset with me for discussing the truth...
Yan: I don't care. Why should you care if I'm upset or not?
Kishi: Because you have to be a great guy for Rye to care so much for you.
Yan: ... I'm sorry... I've been having a hard time lately and... I'm sorry.
Kishi: It's quite alright. You should treat yourself to a spa day, makes life seem brighter.
Yan: I haven't done that in... God, at least a year. I really am sorry, I've been so stressed and I only even found out that you were there yesterday... *sigh*
Kishi: Oh? really?...I'm going to have to have a talk with Rye about keeping secrets from his boyfriend....
Yan: He's promised he won't do it again and I believe him. I guess he wasn't even technically my boyfriend until a couple of days ago... we didn't really have a label.
Kishi: Lucky man.......Who knew Rye could find such a pretty boy to date.
Yan: ... Thank you...
Kishi: You know...It really isnt fair to be upset about me living here considering you have so many roomates, and a second boyfriend.
Yan: I'm not upset... okay maybe I'm a little jealous... but Rye knew about Leo from the beginning and my roommates... what do they have to do with anything? Two of them are kids and the other two are completely devoted to each other.
Kishi: Well it seems that you're only jealous beacause im living here....but is that fair considering your situation...Least you have had others before this point.
Yan: Yes I'm jealous but I can admit that. You'd be jealous too if the man you loved was living with another man, one who I get the feeling isn't exactly the type to keep his hands to himself.
Kishi: Just because my hands wander doesn't mean he isnt staying completely loyal. He just cant get to rough with me because he's supposed to be protecting me and that would defeat the purpose.
Yan: You're doing this on purpose... and I want you to know i think it's very cruel.
Kishi: Doing...what on purpose?...sorry I dont understand.
Yan: Where's Rye?
Kishi: I...think he's curled up in bed.
Yan: Well if he's not coming back tonight then I'm going. I wanted to talk to him.
Rye: I'm here im here............my appologies, i didn't realise i had left our conversation open.
Yan: *sniffles* I don't like him. I know that there's nothing I can do about it but he was baiting me on purpose... talking about how he could see your body and touch you...
Rye: He's not smart enough to tease someone in such a manner.....And he doesnt get our relationship, I think it disturbs him that you have two boyfriends but hate when either gets close to someone else.
Yan: I... I'm sorry... maybe this wasn't such a good idea after all...
Rye: Lamb...What do you mean?
Yan: I don't know...
Rye: You know or you wouldn't have said that...What do you mean..Please tell me.
Yan: *sniffles* Maybe it isn't fair that I have Leo and I get upset at the idea of you doing things with someone else...
Rye: Never......I told you I'd never do anything with anyone but you. I'm loyal like that.
Yan: But... I'm sorry. I trust you but I don't trust him.
Rye: He isn't a bad guy...he's just...It's just his profession to try and get laid..
Yan: ... you're living with a hooker?
Rye: I...Well yes.
Yan: Another thing you might want to have mentioned before... just y'know... because it's a bit of a... difficult thing to find out.
Rye: I thought I.............Oh crap....thought I had mentioned that...
Yan: Nope, no mention of living with a hooker.
Rye: ...I guess I figured his profession wouldnt matter.
Yan: *wipes eyes* God we're bad at this.
Rye: ....I'm so sorry yan......I never meant for you to cry..
Yan: I didn't mean to... I've been crying really easily lately though. I'm sorry.
Rye: Lamb..you have no reason to appologize. I feel awful that I can't be there to comfort you though...
Yan: Neither of us seem to be very good at this relationship thing... but... we're gonna be able to do it right?
Rye: You're the only one that seems to have any doubts.....
Yan: I'm sorry, but it makes me feel better to hear you... or I guess see you say that.
Rye: Please smile...if it makes you feel any better im wearing the frog necklace and bear hat..
Yan: You're actually wearing the frog necklace? Really? I thought you'd think it was too cutesy or something. Oh, and yes, I'm smiling.
Rye: Anything to make my boy smile...
Yan: I am amazed at your ability to turn me from a crying little girl into the happiest boy in the world.
Rye: Only thing that makes me qualified to be your boyfriend it seems..
Yan: You're qualified because you make me happy. I know I may not have seemed happy lately but I really am, I've just been a little... high strung.

Story: Use Your Imagination

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 13:01:50 GMT

Title: Use Your Imagination
Rating: MATURE
Synopsis: Not so much a story, as something Yan has written to Rye. He wants Rye to use his imagination...

***

I want you to use your imagination. Imagine my delicate fingers trailing over your skin, tracing your every scar. I know you have them, you’re a bodyguard after all, you’re bound to. Perhaps there are some on your chest maybe, your stomach… farther down… I know you have scars farther down. I won’t laugh, don’t worry, you never have to worry about that from me. But I’m curious…

Imagine pink tipped fingers between your thighs, exploring every inch of you. Don’t think you can avoid it, I want to know all of you even if you seem to think it won’t do me any good. Imagine how that might feel. Can you feel it? Does it even feel like anything? Would you ask me to stop?

Imagine me kissing you, first on the lips savoring that gorgeous mouth of yours then over the rest of your body. I should warn you, I bite. I’m sure it’s nothing compared to yours but I’ve been known to leave marks when I lose control a little bit. You’re tough though, you can handle it right? Besides, how many other people will be seeing the places I might be biting you?

Imagine me behind you, whispering into your ear how much I love you and how long I’ve waited to be with you. I’m not used to taking control but I’ll do it to be with you. I’d do just about anything to be with you. I’m sure you’ve already imagined that before though… haven’t you?

Yan and Rye: Another Sweet Bunny Boy

Thu, 18 Jan 2007 12:56:35 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the deviation "Another Sweet Bunny Boy" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

In general you can expect their comments to turn dirty (though they don't always) so the rating is at least PG13.

Note: Once again this is another one of their conversations that hold actual plot points rather than just flirting and fluff. Just y'know... in case you're following along.

Note 2: This deviation featured "tomboy Yan" in Key's stripped bunny eared hoodie and jeans.

Rye: Aww....You look adorable, lamb.
Yan: *grins madly* Thank you darling! I hope it's not too boyish for your taste.
Rye: You'd look good in anything. That includes a giant bow.
Yan: A giant bow hmm? And what else?
Rye: Whipcream?
Yan: Mmhmm... but whipped cream is awfully messy... you'd have to clean me off you know.
Rye: I do beleive that would be the point.
Yan: *purrs* You're a horrible tease.
Rye: But it makes you oh so happy, does it not?
Yan: Of course it does, it also makes me very anxious to see you.
Rye: I'm sure that feeling will remain but the reasons will change in due time.
Yan: What do you mean?
Rye: You're going to want to see me just to yell at me...or attempt to hurt me..
Yan: What do you mean? I... don't understand...
Rye: I...Have a client living with me..
Yan: ... A client? You mean...
Rye: His name is Kishi.........
Yan: His name... Wait... you mentioned that name in your journal... Oh god...
Rye: I did?...oh right....when he was a child. He's 19 now, im not a pedophile
Yan: ... You're having sex with him? *breathing hard* Oh god...
Rye: Yan...oh shit...I didnt mean it like that! I...I havent...I wont....
Yan: I don't know what to say... how long as he been there? Has he... has he come on to you? God I don't even know if I want to know that.
Rye: A few days.........And...y-yes...he's come onto me...alot....
Yan: A few days? Did you know he was coming? Why... why didn't you tell me?
Rye: I...I knew he was coming..but I didnt know he'd act like this. I'm sorry Yan...I should have told you but I was so terrified of hurting you.
Yan: Hurting me? What do you think you're doing now? One day you tell me you love me then the next I find out you're living with the son of the man you had the best sex of your life with? Rye... I...
Rye: I never said he was the best...oh god Yan, i'm so horribly sorry....I love you so much...I never meant for this to happen....
Yan: It was implied, I mean he's the only one that's been worth mentioning so he must have been good. I... Rye I trusted you. I know I have no right to assume you aren't off having sex with other men but... You knew about Leo from the start... is this some kind of revenge? Did you plan this?
Rye: No...I didnt plan this. I knew about you and Leo having a relationship from the start. Kishi and I...We're not...
Yan: You're not what?
Rye: We dont have that kind of relationship............I won't be doing anything with him...I promise...
Yan: ... Really? You mean it? If you're just lying to me Rye...
Rye: Yan.........I love you.....I wouldnt sleep with someone else just because its convenient.
Yan: Even though I've got Leo?
Rye: I admit its tough....but a promise is a promise...
Yan: I... I love you too Rye. *wipes eyes* But please be honest with me in the future. I don't want to be hurt anymore.
Rye: I...never meant to hurt you, in any way.
Yan: I believe you... but you need to stay honest with me. I would never lie to you, I hope you'll do the same for me. I trust you... still. I'm sure people will think I'm foolish for it but I love you and I trust you won't break my heart.
Rye: Yan, im so sorry...I really never meant to cause you any pain. Please thank leo for me...he knocked some sense into me
Yan: Leo? I... okay... I didn't know you two were still talking.
Rye: Would you rather we didn't...?
Yan: No, it's okay that you do. I guess I need to get over thinking it's weird... in a way it's kind of nice that you two get along.
Rye: I'm glad you think so. Is it not good that we get along so well? Don't worry...we don't talk about you all that much..
Yan: No, it really is nice that you get along so well, I was afraid you two would hate each other. I just keep thinking it's weird to talk to Leo about you or to you about Leo, and I guess I thought you talking to each other was kind of weird too... but since I'm the only one who thinks that I guess it doesn't make much sense.
Rye: Aw...just think about it...you have two guys to cuddle with. If you're hot on a summer day its even better, neither of us is warm.
Yan: *laughs* I would give anything to be able to cuddle with you right now. It's been kind of a rough night.
Rye: My appologies...I really wish I could be there for you. At least leo is.
Yan: I know he is... and this may sound cruel but I want you right now. I think Leo would understand. Not that it matters of course.
Rye: I'm sorry....I wish I could be there.
Yan: Me too... But at least having you here online is better than not having you at all.
Rye: If you didnt have at all, you wouldnt be feeling like you are.
Yan: Don't say that. I'd rather miss you terribly then truly be without you.
Rye: So adorable...
Yan: *blush* You make me this way.
Rye: I will deny that...I shouldnt change how you are..
Yan: But you have... I'm not really like this around anyone else. I guess you could say this side of me belongs to you.
Rye: I like that notion
Yan: I can honestly say I never thought I'd ever see you act so sweet.
Rye: I was afraid you'd leave me....
Yan: Because of Kishi?
Rye: Yes....and i've been angering you so frequently.
Yan: I'll admit I didn't know why you kept pushing my buttons but I wouldn't leave you over that. And Kishi... well we've discussed that already. Leaving you would be a last resort darling, one that I really don't want to ever have to consider.

Yan, Rye and Leo: Some Pig

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 15:31:14 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the journal entry "Some Pig" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

This is another dirty one, so if that offends you don't read.

Note: Honestly the point of the actual journal entry isn't important. The talk that follows however is, and involves important plot points in Yan and Rye's relationship even though the conversation is almost completely between Rye and Leo.

Rye: Yay! I cause problems!
Yan: Darling that's all you do... but at least it's entertaining.
Rye: *snicker* its fun....
Yan: Well you certainly keep things interesting that's for sure. My life would be completely bland and boring if it wasn't for...
Leo: You lie.
Yan: What? It would be, if-
Leo: You're a liar.
Yan: But-
Leo: LIAR!
Rye: Liar? why is he a liar leo?...oh...do you do naughty things to him in bed?
Leo: *chokes* NO! Well... we quite often don't make it to the bed...
Yan: Oh God! *hides*
Leo: And he generally initiates it.
Yan: You don't have to give details!
Leo: Though, I admit I do like it when-
Yan: I can think of a very interesting way to shut you up you know!
Leo: ... Anyway, I called him a liar because I knew he was going to suggest that his life was drama free before he met you. That is a lie.
Rye: That is true..........And you dont make it to the bedroom? oh my....what does that naughty boy do to you.
Leo: Oh I have a feeling you'll find out... well, to an extent anyway. But I will admit that he's won me over on the excitement of being caught. If Donovan didn't have his head so far up his ass he'd probably be proud of me.
Rye: ...Is yan alright? He seems oddly nervous about our discussing this subject.
Leo: He is currently covering his ears and repeating "I can't hear you" over and over again... which is a little strange considering I'm typing and not actually speaking out loud aside from random comments and laughter.
Rye: He's such a strange boy....adorable, but strange.
Leo: *laughs* He definitely is that.
Yan: I just think it's weird that's all... I mean... you guys don't think it's weird? What'll happen when we finally have sex Rye? Are you two going to start comparisons?
Rye: Well...there's an idea. What do you think Leo?
Leo: I don't know, he may be able to use that against us considering our experiences won't quite be the same. I can honestly say I've never...
Yan: You've never had me do you... up the ass I mean. That's what you were going to say right?
Leo: I was going to be a little more tactful than that. You're vulgar when you're in a huff, you know that?
Rye: Aww....Leo's still part virgin....You really should change that Leo, it feels good.
Leo: Excuse me, I only recently lost half of my virginity, I think I'm allowed to ease into the rest of it.
Yan: Nice choice of words you used there.
Leo: You're impossible.
Yan: But I'm cute so that makes up for it.
Rye: Leo im astonished you dont have your brothers sex drive.....Such things usually run in families
Yan: It could be argued that he does...
Leo: Hey, Yan likes to be dominated and I have no problem dominating him. I don't see why we need to deviate from that if that's how we both like it.
Rye: Leo? You're dominating? Shocking...
Leo: *smirk* You've already seen how I can act when provoked, how shocking is it that I could dominate someone sexually? It just took a little nudging that's all. I will admit Yan usually gets things started but once they're initiated I am very much in control.
Rye: I'm going to almost feel sorry for him when he cant have the same pleasure from me.
Leo: Oh I have a feeling you'll be able to work him up a bit. I've also never... *sigh* Oh fuck it, I've never given him a blowjob. Don't give me crap about it it's just not something I want to do. And besides, we both know Yan's a little switch, he'll be dominant or submissive depending on what the situation calls for.
Rye: If you're so nervous about such things you should let me teach you to please him in more ways. He'll be shocked I assure you
Leo: I'm not nervous! I could do it if I want I just... I'm easing into things like I said. You imagine being a virgin for over four hundred years and suddenly having a (for lack of a better word) horny little sex kitten living with you. That's a lot to take in at once. And... how exactly would you teach me something like that anyway? *eyebrow raise*
Rye: Oh i'm sure yan wouldnt mind leaving us alone for an hour in may.....*smirk*
Leo: Uh... I uh... Are you coming on to me?
Rye: I'm offering to instruct you in a few things.
Leo: *flushed* I uh... thanks but no. If I needed instruction I could get it from Yan, he's pretty good at that kind of thing.
Rye: Have I gone and flustered you? My appologies...I was just tryign to offer my assistance.
Leo: I can't say I'm used to people offering me assistance in quite that way. You are definitely the first.
Rye: I'm sorry...I know i can be a bit foward at times. I do not always think about the consequences of my actions.
Leo: You remind me of my brother sometimes, and don't take that as an insult. He really is a good guy. You also don't have to be sorry. In my present state, the state I seem to perpetually be in since Yan and I first started having sex I might have accepted your offer were you not my boyfriend's boyfriend. I don't quite know how Yan would react to something like that.
Rye: I'm afraid...I'm not quite sure either....
Leo: I'm afraid he would probably be hurt... I don't know. He's committed himself to the both of us but he's never asked the same of me. I don't know that that's really an issue of course considering I don't go out much so it's not like I'm meeting people outside the house. Still, I don't know if he expects me to be with only him or not...
Rye: He's never asked it of me either.....but he does not yet know that I live with another man. One that seems quite content to crawl into bed with me at night though I do not sleep.
Leo: You haven't told him yet? Rye I told you... don't hurt him. It's going to hurt enough to know another man can have you and he can't but to know that you didn't tell him... do you want to break his heart?
Rye: Never.....I'm just scared of telling him. If you're so concerned about him getting hurt why dont you tell him.
Leo: It's not my place to tell him! God... Rye I'm dissapointed. He's in love with you, I'm sure you know that. He radiates it all the damn time, even though he doesn't know I know. (One of the joys of my growing psychic abilities.) He's in love with you and you can't even spare his feelings.
Rye: I know he loves me damnit! that is why im terrified to tell him......He knows I love him! So why should it matter!
Leo: It matters because if you love someone you shouldn't be keeping secrets from them. You have another man sleeping with you, I don't know to what extent you two have... done things but either way you know full well that's going to upset him. *sighs* He was honest with me about you, be honest with him.
Rye: ...I'll tell him...I promise.
Leo: Please do. I don't know if you realize the damage you'd do to him if you didn't. He's so... fragile when it comes to you, it's very strange.
Rye: I never mean to cause him harm.........I didnt know he'd become fragile when dealing with me.
Leo: Neither did I. Truthfully I've never seen him that way before. There really is something about you... maybe this is how he was with Jeremy, I don't know.
Rye: I'm sorry Leo...I never meant for him to care for me so much. You two really are a cute couple..
Leo: Don't apologize to me, I'm not feeling neglected. I know his heart belongs to you but that doesn't mean he can't have feelings for me. We're still a couple no different than the way we were before. In a way it's almost as if things are reversed with us. *laughs* I am not ashamed to admit that I generally am the one who needs the reassuring in our relationship.
Rye: I'll tell him later this evening......Just promise me you'll be there to comfort him when he becomes upset.
Leo: Of course I will, and I'll be sure to remind him of how much you love him. He'll be okay.
Rye: Thank you....so much Leo. I really am not looking foward to discussing this with him..
Leo: Well the sooner you get it out in the open the less it will hurt him. If he found out this man had been living with you for months he... probably wouldn't forgive you.
Rye: He gets angry with me constantly...but this is different.
Leo: It's very different. I'm no relationship expert obviously but... I'm guessing you haven't been in a great many of them...
Rye: Not true relationships, no....Traveling around so much really didnt allow for it.
Leo: Then we're almost on the same level... entirely too old to be learning these things.
Rye: You're at least three hundred years older then I am.
Leo: So? I fail to see your point here. I'm aware I'm older than you, all that does is make my situation a little more... well pathetic I guess.
Rye: It is a bit pathetic i'm afraid...
Leo: If you're expecting me to get offended don't bother. I know it's true. I was practically emotionally dead until Yan... pestered me into giving him a chance.
Rye: Pestered?......He seems rather good at that. I'm not even sure how he and I started...
Leo: He's very good at that. He wouldn't leave me alone until I actually let him prove that he wasn't just in it for sex. I sometimes wonder if he'd have done the same thing if he knew I was a virgin.
Rye: I havent discussed it with him so im not aware.
Leo: I didn't assume you had. In the end I'm glad things have ended out the way they have.
Rye: Even though he's dating me as well?...........or at lease for the time being...
Leo: Yes, because I know you make him happy. And relax, I told you he'll be okay. He'll most likely make you think he hates you or something along those lines but he'll be okay.
((Note: By this point Rye was having "the talk" with Yan in another window.))
Rye: I can't do this...Leo I can't hurt him like this.
Leo: You have to, you have to tell him the truth. It will crush him if he finds out later, do you want that?
Rye: ...........He's going to be crushed now
Leo: He's going to be hurt now, but he'll get over it. He knows you love him, you two can get past this.
Rye: I'm going to go drown my idiotic feelings...
Leo: *growls* You are going to tell him the truth and if you don't I swear to God you will regret it.
Rye: Don't threaten me Leo...please...I dont need it right now.
Leo: I apologize, I thought you were going to back out. I'm here to support you Rye.
Rye: ...Joy of the internet...you can talk to multiple people at the same time....
Leo: And I'll be here for you until Yan needs me. I imagine that for the moment it's probably best if I'm not there.
Rye: Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit........I screwed up...
Leo: Well if it makes you feel any better I don't hear him crying yet, and I consider that a good sign.
Rye: He's probably to shocked...........
Leo: You're doing fine, just be honest. Rye I really think he'll be able to forgive you.
Rye: He's never going to want to speak to me again...
Leo: Give him time, understand why he's hurt and be patient. He isn't going to give you up.
Rye: I wouldnt blame him if he did......
Leo: I don't think he could even if he wanted to, not right now.

Yan and Rye: For the Love of Macro 1

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 14:19:03 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the deviation "For the Love of Macro 1" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

This one gets kinda dirty folks, so if you don't want to read the boys talking about sex... then don't read.

Note: In the deviation you see Rye's hand which is very big (he had the flexibody in this picture, which he's now using again) and it was referred to as "meaty".

Rye: My hand i not meaty! Thats other things on this dreadful body!
zim: BEEFCAKE!!!
Yan: *eyebrow raise*
Rye: NOT A BEAFCAKE!! *bright red*
Yan: Hey, she said that not me. I made no beefcake comments thank you.
Rye: ...You're thinking it....or at least about other things that may be beefy.
Yan: Pfft. Considering darling that I'm used to other things being gone, I'm hardly going to get excited about a temporary body I'll never get to use.
Rye: Aw....We can always find other things to entertain ourselves with. I'm still up for that scary movie scenario.
Yan: I'm sure you are. I'm up for the aftermath of the scary movie scenerio...
Rye: What? not being able to sleep? or the inevitable clinging to me in fear?
Yan: The clinging... and what would no doubt happen as a result of the clinging.
Rye: Me trying to calm you down? *smirk* I do think im enjoying this contemplation more and more..
Yan: As long as your contemplation doesn't involve clothing then that's fine with me... though even if it didn't I assure you I can be very persuasive.
Rye: Only thing it requires is you being skirtless...
Yan: Oh Rye, you really know how to sweet talk a guy. Though technically you're wrong. The only thing it requires is me not wearing underwear. The rest is just an added bonus.
Rye: I'd be worried about you trying to suffocate me beneath it.
Yan: ... What exactly are you getting at darling?
Rye: That your skirt might try to kill me
Yan: ... *bursts into laughter*
Rye: ....what?! I'm being serious!
Yan: *giggles* Darling... why exactly would your face be in the general vicinity of my skirt for it to smother you?
Rye: You know exactly why...
Yan: Mm hmm. Well then I'll be sure to take the skirt off since if you're good enough I can't promise I'll have the piece of mind to hold it up for you.
Rye: If you're to loud you may wake your friends.....wouldnt want that.
Yan: I can be quiet if I absolutely have to.
Rye: Good boy. We dont need to disturb the fragile minds of your roomates.
Yan: *laughs* Well it's Tycho and Mir that I'd be most worried about, and odds are Leo will be playing mother hen to them. He's already told me that I'm yours that weekend and he's okay with that. I thought that was very sweet of him.
Rye: It is very sweet of him. Though considering he gets you the rest of the year its also quite fair and understanding of him.
Yan: *nods* I'm afraid I might be a little clingy... I'm not normally but I'm already missing you a great deal and we have months to add to that.
Rye: You can cling to me all you want. I'd be just as content staying in bed with you too but im sure you'd be tempted to try other things to me than cuddling.
Yan: You know me too well. I admit I'd like to do a little more than cuddle but if that's all we were able to do I would be happy just to have that much.
Rye: We'll see.....Though I do have every intention of getting under that skirt of yours.
Yan: You won't find any resistance from me.

Yan and Rye "Love and Dreams"

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 12:43:08 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the deviation "From Yan's Diary: Love and..." posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

In general you can expect their comments to turn dirty (though they don't always) so the rating is at least PG13.

Rye: you dreamed about me, Lamb? How sweet! *mushy teasing*
Yan: I dream about you a lot. *blush* They're not always like that... but I don't really mind when they are.
Rye: You love me...you love me...So cute.
Yan: Ugh! You are a bastard! *huffs* I take it back!
Rye: aw....lamb does that mean i should keep your valentine gift?
Yan: ... You're mean. *pouts* It's not very nice of you to throw someone's feelings in their face... especially when they tried really hard not to have them in the first place.
Rye: maybe i'm trying to help you by making those feelings fade away?
Yan: ... *quiet* Why would you do that? Do you want them to?
Rye: Never...but I want you to be happy, and since you dont want these feelings for me, wouldnt it make you happy to get rid of them?
Yan: No... I don't know what would make me happy... but I don't want to be without you.
Rye: I never said you had to be without me.....I'll litterally always be here for you. You dont need feelings to be with me.
Yan:Yan: But I have feelings for you and they aren't going to go away. You've said it yourself... I love you. I'm sorry, I know that wasn't in whatever plan we may have had but... it happened.
Rye: Yan......I love you too.
Yan: You do? I... uh... Okay.
Rye: I'm...I'm sorry, I shouldnt have said anything. I'm sorry.
Yan: No, I'm glad you said it... I'm very glad. Please don't be sorry.
Rye: I dont want to do anything to screw up what we have.....not that either of us knows what we have.
Yan: I don't know about you but I think I have an incredibly sweet if not sometimes... difficult boyfriend... and I'm not referring to Leo. You don't have to consider me your boyfriend if you don't want to but I'd like to consider you mine.
Rye: I'd like that......And I'm sorry I'm difficult, I'll try to behave.
Yan: *laughs* Don't try too hard... I'd hate for you to get boring.

Journal Entry: Love and Dreams

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 12:33:45 GMT

Title: Love and Dreams
Raiting: PG13
Synopsis: Yan details an important moment in Yan's relationship with Rye, as well as some accompanying dreams.

***

Just as I think that perhaps I’m getting a handle on things they go all out of whack again. I guess I can’t be surprised, I mean that’s a relationship, right?

Last night Rye… that little bastard tricked me into admitting I love him. It wasn’t a lie, I do love him… I hate that I love him but I do. I realize how harsh that sounds, but I never wanted to fall in love with anyone again, and I figured the relationships with Rye and Leo were safe on that front. With Jeremy it hurt too much when it ended and I know it has to end with these two. Besides that it kills me to be apart from Rye, which is unfortunate considering that’s what we have to deal with every day. But I guess I can’t stop myself from feeling the way I do, even if I don’t necessarily want to.

It also didn’t help that he made me feel foolish about it while at the time making me incredibly happy. I don’t understand it, it must me some masculine thing that I just never really picked up on. *sigh* But I’m trusting him not to break my heart, at least not right away. I’ve never considered myself fragile but there’s something about him that makes me feel that way. God, I’m such a girl.

And then there’s Leo. I slept alone last night which was probably for the best. After getting offline I found him spending time with Mir and Tycho and I coaxed him away long enough to tell him that I was going to bed early. He asked if I was okay, I told him I was and he kissed me goodnight, that was the end of it. I think he knew better than to press me for further details. He doesn’t seem to have a problem with me talking about Rye, just as Rye doesn’t seem to have a problem with me talking about Leo but I think it’s a little strange. Thankfully my new friend Julian is willing to let me whine otherwise I would be crushed under the weight of it all I’m sure.

Anyway I went to bed alone and stared at the ceiling for some time letting my mind run away with me. It’s really weird what your mind comes up with as you start to get tired but your body won’t let you fall asleep. It wasn’t necessarily sexual either which I’m sure will come to a shock to just about anyone who knows me. I’m really not all about sex… mostly but not all. Of course I have no control over what my mind does when it takes complete control and I finally manage to fall asleep.

Let me just say this: If sex with Rye is half as good in reality as it is in my dreams I will be a very happy little lamb. It’s been… quite a while since I’ve taken control though so I’m a little nervous. Ha! Me? Nervous about sex? The world must be ending, right? But we only have a short time together in May and I want to make the most of it in whatever ways possible. (Yes, even if that means nothing but cuddling… though I do expect some kissing to be part of that. I love kissing.) I guess we’ll see though, won’t we?

So there we have it. I love the little bastard and he said he thinks he’s falling for me as well… I’m afraid it’s only going to get more complicated from here, but as long as I keep a stocked liquor cabinet I should handle it just fine.

Yan and Rye "The Girl Next Door is a Boy"

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 08:50:58 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the deviation "The Girl Next Door is a Boy" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

In general you can expect their comments to turn dirty (though they don't always) so the rating is at least PG13.

Note: This deviation shows Yan dressed as a boy... or as boyish as he can look anyway.

Rye: I think the worlds ending......*head goes a splodin*
Yan: *laughs* See, I can look like a boy when I want to!
Rye: Maybe if you didnt wear makeup......................there is a difference between dressing and looking, Lamb.
Yan: Uh... nobody sees me without my makeup. >.>
Rye: I'm sure leo has....not like it will still be on, or at least well, after a rough night.
Yan: *laughs* It stays on fairly well actually, just gets a bit messed up. As far as I know the only person who has ever seen me without any makeup is Jeremy. (It's hard to keep your makeup on in the shower after all.)
Rye: I'm sure in time that will change....After all, you and Leo do live together.
Yan: Oh I'm sure it will happen, but it'll most likely take me being sick and unable to get out of bed. I just don't feel right without my makeup on. *laughs*
Rye: so its like me without pants...
Yan: I... don't know about that. Mine is a purely superficial reason and I'll admit that. As beautiful as I like to think I am I'm not nearly as pretty without makeup. Besides, I fully intend to see you without pants.
Rye: we'll see lamb....
Yan: You know I would never laugh at you or do anything to make you uncomfortable. I may tease but I'm not a bad person.
Rye: Yan....im not that emotionally fragile. Don't fret.
Yan: You say that, but I somehow think you wouldn't react favorably to being laughed at in such a vulnerable position.
Rye: I......*falls quiet*
Yan: Look, I know you're a tough guy, I know you aren't some vulnerable little kid but I also know that whenever things start to get a little too close to home you clam up. It doesn't take a genius to figure out you're nervous about me seeing you without your pants on. You don't have to be, alright?
Rye: Alright Yan...I know I don't have to be unnerved about the subject but it does happen, that is beyond my control. Even if I never get over that feeling I know that you would never be the one to make a big deal about it....
Yan: Good. I'm glad to finally know you trust me. *smiles*
Rye: I trust everyone till they give me reason not too.....Not the safest thing to beleive but i can take care of myself.
Yan: That you can. I can't afford to be quite so trusting but I try to at least see the best in people. For the most part I've been fairly fortunate in my life and haven't had to deal with too many bastards.
Rye: I don't know...You found me online, love me, and I'm a bastard..
Yan: You can be a bastard, but you aren't one. That's why I love you.
Rye: I do beleive I just got you to admit something you havent before *smirk*
Yan: What? What are you- ... Oh...
Rye: Blushing? I'm sure you are...but don't worry, its adorable. I do beleive I'm falling for you as well.
Yan: You tricked me... that wasn't very nice. But... it's true... and yes I'm blushing... I can't help it.
Rye: I out witted you.....and I finally got a truthful answer about your feelings.
Yan: Did it ever occur to you that you could just ask?
Rye: But where is the fun in that?
Yan: Well it wouldn't have been quite so embarassing for me that way.
Rye: Well.......im sure you're even more stunning when you blush.
Yan: I... you... *frustrated* Ugh! You're awful!
Rye: No...I'm just good at avoiding your anger. Plus you love me.
Yan: It's not very nice to use that against me. I didn't want to love you...
Rye: Oh but you enjoy it now.
Yan: Currently? *eyebrow raise* You sure you want to make that assumption? Anyway, it's not now that I'm worried about... it's the future.
Rye: Don't worry about the future till it happens.
Yan: Oh that's deep. *sigh* I'm sorry... I don't mean to be a jerk I just... my heart broke when it ended with Jeremy I didn't want it to happen again.
Rye: Be glad that I am good with fragile things.
Yan: I'm trusting you...

Yan and Rye "A Note Parts One and Two"

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 19:55:25 GMT

This is the conversation between Yan and Rye in the comments of the deviations "A Note Part One" and "A Note Part Two" posted on deviantArt. Rye and his dialogue belongs to Kris.

In general you can expect their comments to turn dirty (though they don't always) so the rating is at least PG13.

(Part One)
Rye: Oh god..my name! *shrivels and dies*
Yan: I get threatened by a tempermental vampire and you're worried about your name? Hmph. Besides... I think it's cute.
Rye: Not cute!..and He's always pissy, its the coffee. *glare*
Yan: He didn't used to be pissy, he used to be really nice to me. :( But he hates me now. And yes, it's cute. Deal with it. *sticks out tongue*
Rye: NOT CUTE DAMNIT! *breif anger* ....okay..im fine....
Yan: *holds hands up in surrender* Okay, fine. Geeze, it seems I'm surrounded by the moody undead.
Rye: *frustrated* ><;; dont compare me to him
Yan: *sighs* I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset you.

(Part Two)
Rye: ...He's a moody blood sucker isnt he? I swear it must be the human blood he drinks. I'm not moody like that..*lie*
Yan: Are you insinuating that we humans are moody? 'Cause you really have no right to be talking y'know.
Rye: ....I just dug my own grave didnt I...
Yan: Yes well... at least you can acknowledge it.
Rye: ...Thats a bad thing.
Yan: Rye darling... please don't take this badly but I think you need to relax a little. I'd help you if I could but sadly I'm too far away.
Rye: I dont relax...Doing so would proove to be quite the idiotic choice on my part...I may get poked with a stick again.
Yan: It would have to be a very long stick darling. *sighs* I just can't win with you tonight can I?
Rye: Lamb...my appologies. I'm afraid my reasoning for my behavior would make you cry or terrified of me.
Yan: I don't think I could be terrified of you darling and the quickest way to make me cry is to hide things from me. You need to stop worrying about scaring me Rye, my attachment to you is far more than just physical.
Rye: I have every reason to fear. I cant imagine what would happen if you discovered blood on me at any instance...
Yan: *soft laugh* Darling I'm not naive. You're a vampire, I know you need to drink blood to survive. But I also know you aren't some insane senseless killer.
Rye: ......I hate drinking blood u____u;;
Yan: Why? Is it the taste or something else?
Rye: It....drives me a bit nuts. Sexually and violently. I fear hurting someone.
Yan: I'm sorry, I don't know what to say. I know you hate doing it but... well you'll die if you don't won't you?
Rye: I suppose its possible...i've never gone so long that I have risked such a thing. It'd be something to consult Donovan on once he has calmed. Please dont worry love..
Yan: I'm sorry, I can't help but worry about you. What can I say, I'm just a lovesick girl at heart. *laughs* And... well... Leo would probably be better to ask on that... I could if you'd like.
Rye: I feel like such an adolecent compared to him......
Yan: Imagine how I feel, I'm only 22 years old. But it's always nice to be able to learn from someone else's mistakes rather than make your own, right?
Rye: I'll just have to learn from Leo. Deal with him behind your back and maybe scheme >3
Yan: That... is so unfair. *pouts in an exaggerated and hopefully sexy manner*

An introduction...

Sat, 06 Jan 2007 23:01:14 GMT

My name is Yan Truant. I'm a 22 year old man that prefers skirts to pants and pink to blue. As you've probably guessed, I'm gay. I came out right after high school and since the only time I'm in the closet is when I happen to have my skirt around my waist and I'm accompanied by a man I most likely don't even know the name of. Well, that's how I was anyway, I've come a long way since then. Of course "then" was less than two years ago.

The change started when some men who had been under the impression that I was a woman (embarassed that a man gave them a hard on I'm sure) beat me nearly to death outside a club. A wonderful man named Jeremy saved me by calling the police and later he became the first man I ever loved. Unfortunately as so often happens the relationship ended and I found myself looking for someplace to get away from his memory. That's how I ended up here.

Where is here? Here is a large house full of interesting characters that I've come to like a good deal... well, most of them. I've found not one but two new lovers who I care for greatly and who so far have accepted me for who I am. Who am I? Honestly I'm not sure anymore, but I'm having an interesting time finding out. <3

Hmm... This journal is a little complicated so personally if you want to read through it I recommend using the memories feature rather than trying to read through it like a regular journal. Just a suggestion though!

Cast of Characters
Yan Truant - That's me!
Leo - My in house boyfriend. It took me a little while to get through his shell but he finally let me in and I'd like to think he doesn't regret it. He's a zombie by the way. *laughs*
Donovan Niccals - Leo's twin brother. Donovan and I used to be pretty good friends until he found out I was seeing his brother. Our relationship is currently fairly rocky. He's a vampire.
Key Akino - Donovan's boyfriend. Key is adorable, sweet, caring and he balances Donovan out THANK GOD. If it wasn't for Key Donovan may have killed me by now.
Rye - My out of house boyfriend. We love each other very much but our relationship never seems all that stable.
Tycho Hailey - My 14 year old roommate. He's a handfull but he's fun to make trouble with.
Mir Gabriel - Tycho's half brother. Mir is complicated, he's really 15 but mentally he's only 12. He's sweet though.
Julian - The only person I can really confide in other than Leo and Rye. Julian often talks me down when I'm having a mental breakdown over relationship drama. ((Belongs to Raila.))
zim - The slightly insane woman we all live with. She takes care of us though so it's appreciated.
Kris - The woman Rye lives with.

Table of Contents
Check my memories to get the whole story, journal entries, photostories, everything in order.
Acts 01 - ?? - Okay no my life isn't a play but these "acts" seperate the photostories and journal entries by general storylines. It makes them easier to follow I think.
Misc. Journal Entries - Sometimes I just have to get things off my chest that don't necessarily have to do with anything currently going on. These entries go here.
Misc. Photostories - Not everything that goes on with me involves drama. Sometimes I get presents or maybe I want to send a message to someone.
Misc. Stories - zim likes to write silly stories about us that sometimes have to do with what's going on and other times... not so much.
The Boys' Conversations - Transcripts of conversations between myself and Rye or Rye and Leo, sometimes even the three of us. Don't ask how it is that I don't manage to see what Rye and Leo say to each other, logic does not apply here.